My 4th Week as Software Engineer I

It’s been one month as a software developer.

This week I asked my co-workers for a track or a direction so that I know that I’m doing well. They all said I was.

I came into the company in June, so I have been in new hire meetings as well as quarterly, monthly, weekly, and daily meetings. I feel as though I have spent more time in meetings than actually coding. I was afraid that I wasn’t contributing enough.

Maybe I did so many interviews that I feel like I’m still being assessed. This week, I realized that I need to settle into the position. That this is it. This is all there ever will be on the job. I will be picking tickets from the board and doing them. That is all.

Maybe I spent an entire year of incredibly hard and timed work during coding boot camp that I can’t believe the job is chill about when I submit my work. I still don’t feel like I’m a part of it all, but my husband keeps telling me that this is it. I’ve done what I set out to do a year and a half ago. I’ve made it.

I’m still scratching my head about it.